Great Sunday

 We had a wonderful Sabbath day.  I'm so thankful for all I learned today.  I feel like I NEED the spiritufal uplift as a mother and always leave our church meetings with more resolve to do better.  We had an amazing lesson with the Young Women today about the importance of keeping records.  I've always known it is important, but get so busy, I forget to write down my daily thoughts and struggles and inspiration.  I guess our blog is a great place to do so :)

I posted pictures of my beautiful girls because right now, they are my life.  They have made me a better person in so many ways and I feel so privliged to be their mother.  I don't always feel worthy to be their mother as I fall short so many days.  Sometimes,  I let my anger get the best of me, and I NEVER wanted to a be an angry mother.  But, I am learning patience and love each day.  There are so many days when I feel overwhelmed with daily tasks of meals, cleaning, laundry, and keeping my girls entertained and running a little business.  I try to make sure there are plenty of days where we just enjoy eachother and don't stress so much over the "perfectly clean house".  I realize they won't be little forever, and this time is so precious with them.  I stress over them so much and hope I am teaching them a love for their family and the gospel of Jesus Christ. 

Gavin and I laugh sometimes about the fact that we have all girls, and obviously it wasn't by mistake :)  I'm a pretty emotional person myself, and those emotions are multiplied most days between the four of us girls :)  I guess it is a good lesson for me to learn, to be more patient and control my own emotions. 

Tomorrow is Gavin's last day of his first year of law school.  I can't believe how fast the time has gone, but so look forward to finishing up our school years.  He works so hard in school and I'm thankful to have a husband who works so hard.  What I love about him is that even when he is really busy and has to spend time studying at home, he makes a point to spend quality time with each of us.  The girls LOVE to wrestle with him and watch movies with Dad.  They get SO excited when he pulls into the driveway (and so do I most days :)  It is nice to have a husband who will play with them as soon as he gets home to relieve me of the stresses I face each day as a mother. 

 This life really is about family and helping eachother return to our Heavenly Father.  Our whole marraige, we've never had a lot of money, and most months we barely make it by.  This can be highly stressful sometimes, but we've always been able to make it when we've paid our tithing.  It has been an amazing blessing.  And the best lesson I've learned is that material things DON'T matter.  We've been just as happy living in little tiny apartments as we are now in this nice rental house.  And I would never trade being a mother for anything in the world.  It is one of the hardest things I've ever done, but so rewarding.

Anyway, this post is mostly for me to record some feelings I've had lately :)